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skyfyre ([personal profile] skyfyre) wrote2010-10-12 12:45 am
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So, where Star Trek made me write weird forms of criticism on episodes (I am totally going to watch the next episode... sometime), Sherlock has made me write fanfiction. I have never actually done this before. This is new, interesting, and kinda frightening. Yay!

Title: The Frailty of Genius
Fandom: Sherlock
Pairing: John/Sherlock
Notes: Secretly from an IM conversation I had with [livejournal.com profile] dendriform a while back. Also blessings upon [livejournal.com profile] trifles for nicely capslocking at me and making me think this should be posted.




Sherlock had once told him about the frailty of genius. He said that geniuses need to be observed. Sometimes Sherlock looks at him and John knows that without him, Sherlock would break under the stress of his own mind.

---

“Could you not call it a game?”

“Why not?”

“People have died, Sherlock.”

“So? We’ll catch the criminal and, if it makes you feel better, justice will be done.”

“Yes, well-”

“Besides, John, aren’t you having fun?”

“Hell.”

---

They never talk about love. John thinks that Sherlock doesn’t say it because then he would have to back off of his high-functioning sociopath stance.

Really, neither wants to name what they have, for fear of someone trying to take it away.

---

If someone were to ask, Sherlock would say that they take turns doing the shopping.

Really, John does it most of the time. Sherlock never remembers to buy the milk when he goes.

John suspects that he does this on purpose.

---

Sometimes John has lunch with Mycroft. He never knows when he starts his day that he’ll be eating with the elder Holmes that afternoon. Mycroft spends the entire meal asking John questions that John refuses to answer. Then John will ask after Mycroft’s diet.

He’s not sure if it’s wise to antagonize a man who may or may not be the entire British Government (and is your flatmate/friend/colleague/whatever’s brother). Somehow, this never stops him from doing it.

---

“You know, every time you talk to the skull, I think you’re about to perform Hamlet.”

“Hamlet?”

“Oh, God, this is going to be the solar system all over again, isn’t it?”

“You’re never going to let that go, are you?”

---

While Sherlock always knew that John had seen Mycroft, John never knew that he’d visited his sister.

He was thankful that she never, in some misguided attempt to protect John’s honor, threatened to hurt him if he ever broke John’s heart. He was less thankful that she threw her drink at him when he called her a drunk.

---

Have found criminal lair - SH

Wait for backup - JW

Lestrade has assured me that he is on his way - SH

Criminal on the move. Following. - SH

Also, we’re out of milk - SH

Get some yourself - JW

Can’t. Bleeding. - SH


---

John would never tire of watching Sherlock sleep. It assured him that even he was human.

---

John had never fancied men before. In Afghanistan he'd been surrounded by them with little else in the way of options, but had never once been tempted. With Sherlock moving inside him, though, setting his senses on fire, he couldn't figure out why he hadn't.

But, then, they probably wouldn’t have felt as good as Sherlock.

---

“We’re going to the pub. You’re going to like it.”

“I rather doubt both of those claims.”

---

Sometimes, they would fight. Sherlock would do something heartless, or John would be too slow to catch a train of thought. They wouldn’t yell. Sherlock would shut himself off and John would get sarcastic. Eventually, John would storm out and spend the night on Sarah’s couch. Sometimes they would reconcile the next morning. Sometimes they would avoid each other for days. They would always forgive each other, though, because life was a war and they each knew who their allies were.

---

John wasn’t sure if it was a good idea for Sherlock to know where the gun was kept. He worried, though, that if Sherlock didn’t mess around with the gun, he’d mess with something worse.

---

Bond night had been successful, for certain definitions of the word. John counted it as a win that Sherlock didn’t leave halfway through to get himself shot at across the city. Instead he picked apart the spy’s motivations and questioned his intelligence. He did it while leaning against John’s side, though. So it was still a win.

---

Sometimes Sherlock wonders if he should let John go. Moriarty had threatened to burn the heart of him, but surely he couldn’t do it if he cut it out first?

Invariably, whenever he went to try this, John would smile at him and he would prove too selfish to do it. He hoped that John wouldn’t pay the price for it.

---

“There’s a hand in the kettle.”

“Very astute.”

“We’ve talked about body parts in the kitchen.”

“Would it help if I moved it out of the kitchen?”

“I’ll just ask to borrow Mrs. Hudson’s.”

---

Sherlock liked to watch John sleep. It assured him that John was still alive, despite attempts to change that.

---

If any of John’s family knew about Moriarty, the pool, and the explosives, they may have tried to convince John to leave, to try and save himself before he got hurt.

Mycroft kept the incident out of the papers, though. John didn’t have to tell his family that he’d gone to fight another war.

---

Sherlock remembers telling John about the frailty of genius; how their genius needs to be observed. He is self-aware enough to know that insanity is not far away from him. He doesn’t know what he’d do without John watching out for him.

---

“What would you do if I said I love you?”

“... You can’t deduce it?”

“Emotions complicate things. It’s why I’ve avoided them in the past.”

“Are you actually telling me you love me?"

“I’m speaking hypothetically, of course.”

“Of course. Hypothetically, then, I might say that I love you back.”

“Ah.”

---

They have both stared into the face of death on multiple occasions. There’s an insane man out there who wants nothing more than to destroy them, mind, body, and soul.

Surely a relationship would be less stress than that?

[identity profile] skadi.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 05:38 am (UTC)(link)
Sherlock's been my first fan fiction, too! Yay!

Also. I like this! I like how you got their voices, and I like the style of this.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 12:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Have you posted? You should link me to where you've posted, I'm just saying.

[identity profile] salr323.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
This is very interesting, I like the style. And I definitely agree that John keeps Sherlock from tipping over from eccentricity to something much darker. Very nice. :)

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 06:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much!

[identity profile] arianedevere.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 02:31 pm (UTC)(link)
This is really nice. I like all these little snippets of their lives and feelings.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 06:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much!

[identity profile] travels-in-time.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 02:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Very nice first fic! I like the style, it seems very much Sherlock's observational style. Bit here, bit there, it all starts to form a coherent picture.

Also, best text message sequence ever. :D

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 06:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it!

[identity profile] web-of-deceit.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 03:31 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so glad I clicked on this, consider my day made. I love your style! I love their voices so much, so so so perfect! I memoried this so hard my finger feels bruised :D:D:D

I have to say, I lost my shit at this:

Mycroft spends the entire meal asking John questions that John refuses to answer. Then John will ask after Mycroft’s diet.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Omg, thank you! I'm very pleased that you liked it!

[identity profile] nightowl81.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 03:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, I LOVED it! You picture them beautifully in just a few words.
I hope you're going to write more! :)

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 06:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I may write more. I don't really know yet. But thanks for your support~

[identity profile] tzikeh.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 06:01 pm (UTC)(link)
You've never written fanfiction before?

Congratulations - you're already better than 90% of the writers out there. This is charming and sad and funny and a little dark and all around enjoyable.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 06:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, I write. I've just not written fiction that much. I'm glad that this has been a good first attempt! Thank you so much!
ext_121721: Pinigir User Picture (Sherlock & John)

[identity profile] pinigir.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 06:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Loved it! Especially loved the conversation about hypothetical love.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much!

[identity profile] mysterypoet66.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 09:24 pm (UTC)(link)
It's really lovely. If, when I read, I simply hear the characters speaking - I count that a win. You win.
I would love to see this continued, or a continuation of the 'verse.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad that the character voices came through!

[identity profile] quantumdoll.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
This is lovely, I really enjoyed it. Also, very good for a first fic ;)

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much!

[identity profile] katead.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh wow, this is never your first?!! It's gorgeous! One of those things that makes me all fuzzy inside AND want to cry! <333 Much love to you for writing and posting it.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I write, but never really fiction. I'm glad this worked out!

[identity profile] ascendant-angel.livejournal.com 2010-10-12 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
This is amazing, very well written. So elegant, moving, and beautiful.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much!

[identity profile] yndigot.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
The fragmented style worked very well and you gave just enough in each snippet to get to the emotional heart of things. Lovely.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 04:04 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad that it worked!

[identity profile] stupid-drawings.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
I love the little snippets and moments! Well done, I hope you'll write more like this!

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 07:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much! I'm certainly considering it!

[identity profile] stupid-drawings.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Please do!

[identity profile] liz-mo.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 07:03 am (UTC)(link)
Good work in your first fanfic! Isn't it fun though?

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 07:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! And it totally is!

[identity profile] rockerfaery.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 12:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Pure win!

My favorite bit is the "Also, we're out of milk". It made me giggle.

Seriously though, I'm with everyone else: I love the style, confusing at first, then coming together more and more toward the end.

Also, I really love how it's gay, without being written with that the sole purpose of the piece. I hate when people do that, as if someone's whole life is about their sexuality. This is so much more true to life, as well as being true to the characters involved. I love it!

Is it possible/okay to link people to it?

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Have you seen Sherlock? Isn't it wonderful?

And you can link if you like, sure!

[identity profile] thette.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 06:51 pm (UTC)(link)
These little snippets are gorgeous. You tell the story of their love in a way that's much larger than the individual parts put together.

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-13 07:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much! I'm so glad that it all worked!
ext_24392: (SH - BBC - S & J Hands)

[identity profile] random-nexus.livejournal.com 2010-10-14 05:02 pm (UTC)(link)
This is very good, especially for a first fic. Enjoyed immensely the little vignette quality of it.

Well done, you!

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-10-14 06:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! (You say "Well done, you!" and I think of Moriarty. Fyi)
ext_24392: (Dark Fae Girl)

[identity profile] random-nexus.livejournal.com 2010-10-14 08:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Dang that Moriarty, using my thang. I've been saying that in comments for a LONG time. Going to have to use something different now.

Unless I WANT to be creepy.

Which wasn't my plan on this.
;)

[identity profile] lavvyan.livejournal.com 2010-10-16 11:03 am (UTC)(link)
Now that's just lovely. Especially the hypotheticals. ♥

[identity profile] shei.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 07:19 am (UTC)(link)
This is so lovely.

[identity profile] doxxed-up.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:27 am (UTC)(link)
Not actually my first fanfiction, but certainly the best. From a reader's point of view, that is.
Very nice job, this. It'll go straight to my memories :D

[identity profile] elvendork-lee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 07:45 pm (UTC)(link)
This is wonderful. I love the hypothetical declarations of love. Very them.

[identity profile] cherish4.livejournal.com 2010-10-19 10:56 am (UTC)(link)
I love the style of this, how it dips in and out of thoughts and feelings.

[identity profile] ranuel.livejournal.com 2010-10-19 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi! My cousin Rockerfaery sent me a link to this and I'm glad she did. This is the first fic I've read using the new series and it's really great. "Can't bleeding" had me giggling like a mad woman. I know I'll be thinking about this story when I finally get to see the series.

[identity profile] kiramaru7.livejournal.com 2010-10-19 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
What an awesoem first fic! *loved it*

[identity profile] valeria vorobyeva (from livejournal.com) 2010-11-04 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
that CAN NOT be your first fic!!
love its every word! so touching, but so... don't know... "manly"?
would you mind if I try to translate it in Russian?

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 03:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Omg, thank you! You're welcome to translate it into Russian, so long as it's still attributed to me. Thank you very much for asking!

[identity profile] valeria vorobyeva (from livejournal.com) 2010-11-05 06:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Dear Skyfyre!
that's the translation - http://www.diary.ru/~sherlockbbc/p132768221.htm?from=last#460657379
People enjoyed. No, people "can't find the word to show the delight"))

[identity profile] skyfyre.livejournal.com 2010-11-05 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
That is so cool! Thank you so much!